Last night was an odd one. Had my typical stay up and watch Adult Swim while chatting on aim routine going. Adult Swim ending, then started over, so I just left it on. I'm usually tired enough by now to go to sleep (usually pass out during Big O). Since most of my buddy list was plastered with away messages at this point, I decided to look at a few more cosplay/kigurumi sites and read the 'about' pages. Those are usually the most interesting part (except for the gallery, I suppose) of the sites. Didn't find all too much new, so my interest is starting to dwindle. I don't think I'm going to learn anything more about it without either emailing some of the people (which i've done, but they're slow to respond) or learning japanese so I can read other sites with more accuracy than the babelfish. The root of my interest is still there, however. That being the whole other identity behind the mask. By the time I had taken all of this in, it was about 4am. I decided to give sleep a chance. Nothing doing. I laid there for about an hour and couldn't stop my brain from thinking. This idea of other identities is nothing new to me. I've thought about it quite a bit. Probably the biggest competetor of my no-design design thing was a blog of multiple personalites. The plan was to split myself up into about six different people, each one pertaining to certain emotions and interests. Then I'd update the blog as different people, each talking about the same course of events, but with different perspectives on each. I almost had it all sorted out but always ran into problems along the way. Still, I thought and continue to think that it would have been great to write and read a blog of that fashion.

So, it became clear to me that I wasn't going to get to sleep any time soon. What to do? Well, I had gone to church with my parents that morning and got a few questions going in my head. I was more interested earlier in the night with the personalites thing, so I didn't look into it any more. I had the rest of the night...erm...early day at this point, so I went to work with that. So, the statement that got my attention was to avoid even the 'appearence of sin'. For example, one can go into a bar for lunch and simply eat lunch. There is no reason to believe that someone has gone in and gotten drunk and cursed up a storm and all that. However, if somebody sees someone who claims to be a Christian walk out of a bar, things just don't seem to add up. Now, this wasn't the point of the lesson, so I didn't attempt a counterpoint, but I spent more time thinking about that than paying attention to the rest of the lesson. Now, it's one thing to abide by the rules given in the Bible. It's another thing to abide by those rules and also rules set up by Christians in order to avoid making the whole lot look bad. Add to that rules (maybe expectations is more accurate) of non-Christians. It's just not possible. So, I think up a situation that may be applicable. So, the disciples get hungry and pick some grain to eat, but on the Sabbath (Matt 12). So the Pharisees see it and bring up the law thing and Jesus totally 0wnz them. Nothing I haven't heard before. However, this is exactly the kind of thing like the bar. In the same way, a Christian could get lunch at a bar, and if someone were to try and condemn him for it, he could explain himself and everything would be ok. It only becomes troublesome when there is no confrontation. So, in my little scenario, suppose someone from town saw the desciples working on the Sabbath. Now, they have their reasons, obiously. But no one knows it unless they confront them. So is a bad example (or would a bad example be) being set forth because of this? This, I don't know. Personally, I don't think it is. They obviously did nothing wrong. What does it matter if someone doesn't realize it?

This went from one thing to another for the next hour or so. Around 6am, I knew my parents would be getting ready for work soon, so I tried the sleep thing again. It worked and I got up around 12. Now what is the point of all this ranting? The point is, to me, that I can write about things of interest. The no-design design doesn't allow for too much of it. I realize it can, but I don't think it is very well suited for it. This takes me back around to the multiple personalities. deal...this is taking too long. The point is I'm making multiple sites. Certain intrests, I think, warrent their own sites altogether. At the very least, it will keep me interested in them and help me to keep at them (making things into websites or some other digital medium tends to really help me get things situated). So there's still the no-design design with its weirdness. There's also at least two other sites (I may think of more...maybe not). Oh well. Thanks for reading all this.