Daydreams on File

rant by Dereck
categories: Design 20, Site Nonsense, Life, Work
2006-12-13 21:32:48
I've found myself with some considerable downtime at work in the past month. Since I'm stuck at a company-owned computer all day, there's only so much I can do to occupy this time. I mostly browse news sites and blogs. I occasionally hit a nice tech article that will send me on an information tangent, wherein I follow link to link until I can read no more. Time seems to pass faster during these tangents, so I enjoy them quite a bit.

My downtime is otherwise spent thinking up projects that I can work on once I get home. Most of the projects that I attempt would benefit from substantial planning. Unfortunately (in these cases) that goes against my nature. I am far more the type to get a spark of inspiration and suddenly flare up whatever combustible lay nearby. This results in my unfinished projects with very short, and often cryptic, explanatory text files. However, while confined at my cubicle, there isn't much action that I can take on a project. I am most often stuck in this pre-action state. A state of thought. A state of planning. So, there I will sit, thinking of the details of projects, and typing up brief notes into Google Notebook so that I can retrieve them at a more opportune time.

Recently, while reflecting on what I had actually done at work one day, I realized that, in a way, I am simply daydreaming. When I think of projects, I think of finished projects. I think of applications that people use and enjoy using. I think of ways that I will have implemented the parts of the project. I think of how easy it would be to add enhancements and how easy things would be to port.

I am daydreaming. Not of an island paradise, but rather of my simple existence a couple of months down the road. I'm still working and I'm up to the same bits of nothing every day, but I have this one project completed. These ideas that I have spent my downtime thinking of and writing down today, I am daydreaming of actually putting to use -- to seeing them materialize as something other than notes.

On the one hand, I am glad to have made this connection. On the other hand, I am worried that my daydreams will have the same fate as most everyone else's daydreams. I take some comfort in the fact that I am, at least, taking notes on my daydreams. They are organized and on file. Attainable or not, I can still read all about them.